So, it's been a few months...Sorry about that. Whats new...
Well, I'm Eighteen - it feels almost exactly the same to seventeen but I don't know what I expected. Some sort of transformation maybe - wake up with a huge beard? No, I'm exactly the same. =P
My Father got married, and then went on a honeymoon for 4 weeks, leaving me home alone the whole time. That was cool I guess, got bored and lonely toward the end there though. I got my licence over those four weeks though, and I have been driving around town on a scooter like a lunatic, I never seen to have anywhere to drive to though, so that's kinda sad I suppose. I don't really have that many close friends any more - Nobody that I talk to everyday of hang out with outside of ucol on a regular basis. I mean, I went to a party get together thing with a couple of people from school a few weeks ago, and it was kinda strange, of the people there I was one of the more successful, there were four of us that were in some sort of school, two were at university the other two, myself included, are a ucol - seems like the ones that aren't in school are having more fun though. That was a bit competitive of me, success can't be measured that way, although I am about six months away from my diploma =P. I miss hanging out with my friends from school, but everyone seems to have split off into their own groups, kinda bitter sweet really. I spent nearly two grand on a new computer - so I'm in debt...just a little.
I'm sorry, I'm distracted by the friends thing...I've been sitting here staring at my screen for quite a while thinking about it. The thing is, I've never really had close friends, like...never ever in my life. I guess I just don't open up as much as other people? The thing is I'd like to, the closest to my friends I have been is sorta my friends from last year, who, as I said, are all off doing their own things now. Bitter sweet. Problem is, I'm not so good at the meeting new people thing...I'm not gonna say I'm awkward or that I'm terrible or whatever - I've learnt that when people say that they may get some sympathy, but it really does them no good. You are who you are, whether it's God that made you that way, or your own choices - point is, you are who you are right now and the sooner you accept that the sooner you can be better. But it's kinda interesting about what made us the way we are - personally I don't believe in a God to do so, but even if there is one, it doesn't matter (I know that can be interpreted badly but bare with me) because I'm here now anyway, regardless of how or why - I'm here now. Might as well be the best I can possibly be and that's it. If there is a God though, he is very good at covering his tracks and hiding himself - from me, and other Atheists anyway. I've said it before and I'll say it again, I wish I could understand, and believe in a God (or The God If you like) but on the other hand, there are some people who are strongly against religion and that's terrible in some ways - and there are some things I disagree with strongly from religion, such as the famous treatment of homosexual relationships and stuff like that. But a denomination that follows the bible in the purest sense - for the sake of a love for humanity and a love for a God (Which, as an atheist, would convert to me as a love for the earth, and the universe, and the fact that we are all even here) - Thats the type of Christianity and community I think is simply brilliant, there is just something so pure about that. But as far as I know, there is no (large anyway) denomination that does just that with no extremists or fundamentalists to ruin it. Maybe there is, I never ended up studying religion, like I planned to. Believing in God sounds peaceful (in some cases) don't get me wrong though, there is a certain relaxation about by absence of belief too.
I got some A- 's from some tests the other day, that was pretty sweet.
Thats all I have to say.
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