Hello my lovely blog that I have neglected slightly. What reminded me of you? Well, no you at all, other people did. I wanted to see what was up, and even though those people probably wont read this, I mean, nobody does anyway, I wanna say thank you to them. Without me realizing, they have made my existence a little less...harsh, I guess. I don't know how to explain myself much better than that. Me not realizing it...that's a lie, kind of anyway. I did notice, but I suppose I didn't know exactly what it was. I ended up liking someone, just because they were...kind...? That's seems a little messed up to me.
I Have learnt something over the course of the year, and guess I have changed a lot too. What I have realized is that there are people who really suck. But there are also people who are amazing, that make you want to be around them and restore your faith in humanity, and just because these two types of people have something in common, namely a religious belief, doesn't mean that the belief itself is bad, just those specific people. This is coming across wrong, I know it. What I want to say is this: Religion is what it is, nothing more, nothing less, there are many of them, and I believe none, but I am yet to meet someone with a stupid belief, though I have met plenty of stupid people with beliefs. So that's a thing.
Me leaving for university is beginning to look impossible again, with a huge issue over money and stuff like that, I don't get the privileges my other two siblings got when they left home, so the cost of my accommodation tuition and everything else is all on me. Sucks, but it is how it is. Originally I was thinking of going to wellington for University, but since I didn't get into a hall of residence and the likelihood of me getting in on account of being on a waiting list is slim, as I mentioned, I can only afford the bare minimum - if that. So my options are as follows: attempt to get a cheap flat in one of the most expensive cities in New Zealand, and still have money for school, food and everything else - Stay here in Palmy, maybe get a flat, and go to University here. Getting a flat certainly would be easier here I suppose - Or run away, I know this seems like a stupid joke of an answer, but I think If I where to just up and go, leave everything and everyone behind, maybe that would be good for everyone. Bottom line is that I need help, this is where God would come in if I believed in him and he liked me. So maybe I should just ask people for help. People, help me? Please?
I have more to say, but that can wait for later
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