ADULTHOOD!

I really don't know what to say. Apart from the same thing I have been saying on here for a while, this is no more a blog than it is a collection of Parrot Stories. I have gotten into the course at ucol, I hope I can enjoy it, but the idea of giving up 3 more years of my life keeps running through my head and making me scared, I mean, what if it's a waste? But that's what I have talked about before, and repeating myself doesn't do any good apart from getting me wound up. I get wound up about situations quite easily, I mean, my father is getting remarried in a couple of months, and one of my new step-sisters is getting on my nerves so bad, I am on the verge disassociating myself with the lot of them, also, I know that they talk about me - I'll occasionally catch a whisper or something about me, not many pleasantries are passed either. But to be honest, I gain solace in the fact that I don't want or need the approval of uneducated gossips. That may sound mean, but I have spent enough time with these people to know that's all there is to them. Not all of them are bad, though, just a couple that are real nerve biters.
I want to move out of home as soon as possible, I think being more independent would be good for my mental health. I was talking to a friend about this the other day and he said if we could find some more people, and if he gets into his course, then he would flat with me - considering I don't know many people that are hanging around looking for flats, I don't think we are going to be flatting together anytime soon.
I had some Jehovah's witnesses return to my doorstep this morning, they came to talk to me a few weeks ago, and we had a civil conversation, which I did tell them that I was an atheist and believed in Science, so today they dropped off a booklet about why evolution isn't real. Yea...but I was nothing but polite to them, they're entitled to do their thing, just as I am mine.
Things are pretty much the dame as they have always been - I'm still broke, I still have social anxiety, though recently I have found ways to combat this, it's not entirely gone, but Progress is happening - and It is all thanks to an article I read about Daniel Tosh having social anxiety too. i am still so very alone =P - and I'm eight days away from being eighteen! Finally, though, I don't feel like I should be trusted with all of the responsibilities of being an adult. I mean, I had to enrol to vote the other day - Who's idea was it to let me have a say in who has control over this county!? Why am I allowed to own firearms? Buy alcohol? go to bars, and clubs and get hookers and  own a house...though none of this actually sounds appealing to me...not a big drinker, and I don't hunt, and I have no interest in catching chlamydia or getting a home loan to last a lifetime. ADULTHOOD!