Shooting Star

Yesterday I was at a friends birthday party, we were all outside in a field planning to play a game of spotlight. It was late, like near midnight. I got bored of the conversations and just looked up, not unusual, I like looking at the stars, it sometimes helps to give me perspective. But anyway, I looked up, and within a second, I saw a shooting star. And yes, I made a wish, even though I don't necessarily believe in that sort of thing, I figure there is no harm in honoring an age old tradition. This is the first shooting star I have seen in my life, and I can't help but think that when we are on the spot, have a second to choose a wish, we go to a very self centered area and wish for something stupid. While I am not going to say what I wished for in that tiny moment in time I was given to make a wish, I do believe I was selfish, and asked for something that is probably wished for far too much and it doesn't benefit anyone, apart from the wisher, and even then, it's not a lot. But I did, I made a wish, and I don't know, I mean it's the type of wish that I might never know if it will come true, it could come true without me even knowing - and that would be worse that not getting the wish at all. I don't know, at the party I was reminded all to mush that I am not overly liked or appreciated, that I am very alone, and separate, but not the only one, and also, that I am still a kid. But at the moment I do, I feel lonely, and I think that is worst feeling in the world. Being alone means that there is nobody at your side to help you, not even someone to talk to about your day and troubles. That is the most tragic part, especially when you know someone that you want to be able to talk to, not even anything romantic like dating, just someone who you want to talk to about things, but you don't feel like they will accept you when they realize all the crazy that goes on in your head.