Thoughts from the past.

I Wrote this month ago and I have no idea what I was talking about. I mean, I understand the conception I conveyed in this post but I honestly, for the life of me cannot understand what led me to feel the feeling that led to writing this post:

It's funny how you can think you know something and you've seen it before, but then suddenly realize that it is in no way a good representation of what you thought it was.
People aren't genuine, I thought I had seen genuine happiness, I thought it could just come along one day and be gone the next. I though a simple trip to an amusement park could make someone truly happy. I was so very wrong, in such a way that I couldn't realize I was wrong until I had seen true happiness, see people so happy and content with what they had, where they were in their lives at each moment. I had never seen, and certainly not felt, happiness like this before. It's so strange. But once you know, everything has to change. It's seems like a tiny thing but it's not, it's huge. It has changed how I see things. But I like to think of it as an improvement - A year when your views on the world havn't changed once is a year wasted.

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It's strange that you can be so sure of something one day, be bristling with these emotions that you think you will never forget, and they will never go away, but then you can look back, days, weeks, months, even years later, and not even remember what it was all about.